Ten Heavenly Months

Ten Months Ago . . .

       I remember being in the hospital for four days and going through all of the emotions. I went through an immediate depressive stage and couldn't listen to a whole specific song on my phone b/c it reminded me of what could've been. I was able to maintain a smile on my face because our cousins made sure they did all they could to make me laugh. I was angry after reading the paperwork from the hospital and finding out that they said I was "below average intellect" bc I didn't know I was pregnant. Even after all of that, baby girl, mommy still stood tall and was able to press on. I can smile now, knowing you would've been a walking dictionary like me. I love the idea of being able to talk about you and share my personal thoughts w/ a group of people I don't know from a can of paint. I love you, my darling.