Independence Day
Happy 4th my sweet angel baby. Mommy misses you so much! I think about you all the time, I see you in my dreams, and it makes me very happy. I've gotten to a place where I can bring your name up and watch any sad movie and not cry too much (I know you'd be so proud of me). I've even gone as far as to join an Angel baby group on Facebook to help cope with you not being here with me.
At the same token, why do I feel so guilty? Why am I just learning that an itchy and scaly hand is a pregnancy side effect? How come when I told your stupid father about you, he acted as if we didn't have relations? Why do I have to go through this all by myself? You should be turning seven months on Friday; instead, I'm forced to allow these walls to close in on me and send me into a whirlwind. Since you've been gone, ten people have told me that they're having babies; and one of them is a lesbian. I had to have done something wrong!
As you can see baby girl, mommy is stressed and depressed. I feel as if I've failed you. I do love you and I know that Nana and Grandad are taking good care of you. Give them a goodnight kiss for me Ma-Ma, I love you!
At the same token, why do I feel so guilty? Why am I just learning that an itchy and scaly hand is a pregnancy side effect? How come when I told your stupid father about you, he acted as if we didn't have relations? Why do I have to go through this all by myself? You should be turning seven months on Friday; instead, I'm forced to allow these walls to close in on me and send me into a whirlwind. Since you've been gone, ten people have told me that they're having babies; and one of them is a lesbian. I had to have done something wrong!
As you can see baby girl, mommy is stressed and depressed. I feel as if I've failed you. I do love you and I know that Nana and Grandad are taking good care of you. Give them a goodnight kiss for me Ma-Ma, I love you!
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