"Another Anniversary"

Seems like every month on this very day, my emotions take a toll on me . . . BUT I'm the only person that feels it and that's sad. I cared once upon a time about what the people would think if I talked about you; but now, I'm as a quiet as a church mouse. I'm already being forwarded to voicemail whenever I would call certain people. Now I know who cares and who doesn't. Now I know what to say around certain individuals. I still cry myself to sleep at night. You would probably say "don't cry Mommy, it'll be okay", but I beg to differ. I feel that everyone else has gotten over their losses mainly because they now have kids. I really don't have too much to remember you by except: my hospital cup and bag, my hospital wrist bands, a funeral home bag, a heart of hopelessness, and a face full of tears that may never go away. BUT one thing that I do know is that I'll never forget you. I will get through this one day, baby girl. Until then, continue to watch over me. I love you Heavenly . . . MOMMY LOVES YOU!!